Column Linking flesh and spirit glorifies both
By JEANNETTE BATZ
But the way shes kneeling,
with that look on her face! Its -- its disgusting! Margaret
was clearly disturbed by Berninis marble version of St. Teresa.
Shed brought it up herself, but now none of us could remember why,
because the discussion had veered into a hot debate of sex and spirit that had
run nearly an hour without exhausting itself. I was making things worse by
maintaining that prayer and meditation were erotic in the highest sense of the
word, because they brought us into intercourse, if you will (she wouldnt)
with all of creation, and culminated in a blissful sense of union, oneness,
transcendence.
Margaret was so peeved she brought her art book the next time we
met. There. Look! One by one, we dutifully peered at the young
saints rapturous face. Yes, indeed, the angel was about to thrust the
arrow of Christs love into her bared breast. Yes that did suggest many
things to us.
No, we did not find them sacrilegious.
God comes to us through the physical all the time, one
woman observed. What else are the sacraments?
My mind wandered to novelist Alice Walkers orgasmic tribute
to a tree, and I knew it would prove Margarets undoing. But seriously,
wasnt it time to loosen eros from the tight confines of heterosexual
procreation? And hadnt the church really been doing that all along, by
valuing the sublimated creative energies of unsated lust?
A young sculptor joined us just then, and the interruption
silenced me just in time. Margaret hailed him with delight and thrust
(irresistible verb) the book at him. Tell us what you see.
He studied the image a long time, then began to speak about the
tension in the folds of the garments, the potential hostility in the way the
two bodies were positioned, the manifold interpretations of the emotion on
Teresas face. I dont necessarily see anything sexual at
all, he said. Margaret nodded triumphantly. I didnt
either, she said.
I stared at her, head tilted like a puzzled terrier. Surely she
--
The woman across from me caught my eye, and we both smiled
slightly. Let it go. Margaret had found a comfortable vantage point from which
to view Bernini.
As for me, I went home and read the mystics, relishing all those
hymns to bliss and rapture as proof of my private thesis. Of course sex
wasnt the peak of all spiritual experience, but maybe it was the best
metaphor we could find. And why not? Sex opens us to penetration; it renders us
vulnerable and receptive. In that moment we are naked in all ways, desperate to
be touched, eager to be united. A huge energy consummates itself in us and
leaves us glowing, tender, new again.
Reasoning by analogy, I could only imagine how wonderful it would
be if that energy were divine.
The following week, I read in this very publication an excellent
summary of new research on the biology of prayer (NCR, April 20). The
capacity for mystical experience was theorized as evolving from human
sexuality, and sharing the same neural circuits.
I nodded with delight -- and then winced. For people of
Margarets bent, this news flash was going to ruin Julian of Norwich
forever. Linking mysticism to sexuality would seem like a corruption, a
reduction of the spiritual to the physical that destroyed the whole point of
transcendence.
For me, linking the two glorified both. Transcending wasnt
escaping, it was moving through something to reach a larger place beyond it. If
our brain was wired to make that experience rapturously pleasurable, just as
evolution had made procreation rapturously pleasurable, so much the better. We
have more to perpetuate than the flesh.
Jeannette Batz is a staff writer for The Riverfront
Times, an alternative newspaper in St. Louis. Her e-mail address is
jeannette.batz@rftstl.com
National Catholic Reporter, June 29,
2001
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