Starting
Point Accept what God offers
By JAMES STEPHEN
BEHRENS
Every morning very early we monks
meditate. There is a half hour between the chanting of the psalms of the night
office when the lights of the church are turned off. Then we go to different
places to savor the stillness, listen to silence and meditate. Early morning is
a good time for that. A peaceful mind more readily absorbs what God offers.
Some monks remain in the church. Others go into the cloister. One
paces the porch outside the rear of the church. Some go to our reading room of
our library and browse words, hoping that the reading stills their hearts
enough to draw God close.
This morning I picked up a pamphlet and read a few passages by a
Benedictine monk, Father Lawrence, on meditation, and liked it. I finished the
passage and sat in a chair and closed my eyes and felt at peace, thankful for
his words on gathering oneself and inviting God to come and be.
Before the bell rang I got up and placed the pamphlet back in its
assigned place on the rack of journals, periodicals and newsletters. There were
a few minutes left before the bell would summon us back to our respective
places in choir. I saw the recent issue of National Geographic and took
it from the rack and opened it. I turned to pictures of a vast desert -- the
photo was taken from the air. Sand stretched for miles, baking in the heat of
the sun. In the lower corner of the same page another photograph caught my eye.
It was a photo of two beetles, very close to each other, looking as if they
were going somewhere on those same vast sands. I looked for the sidebar to read
about them. I found it. I read it and was fascinated, but the bell rang and I
quickly put the magazine away.
I went back after the night office finished, opened the magazine
again and read the sidebar more carefully.
The beetles look very much like ordinary beetles. They are called
Toktokkies. They live with all their Toktokkie beetle family and friends in the
Namib Desert, in southwest Africa. Water is, of course, very scarce in a place
like that. And that is what the little sidebar was about: what these small
creatures do to survive, what they do to get water.
Every morning they make a trek at dawn before the sun has
evaporated the moisture of the cooler night air. The beetles find a convenient
or comfortable spot and then stop. They elevate their rears, hold them high,
and wait for the fog to condense on their bodies. Soon, tiny drops of water
form -- I could see these in the picture -- and the drops slide down their
bodies and into their mouths. When their thirst is quenched, when they have
enough water to sustain them, the Toktokkie do what all living things do: They
go about getting through their day. Night comes, then morning, and another
trek, another raising of their rears for replenishment from the gift of night
moisture.
All about me this morning were millions of words. I was also
comforted by the chanting of the psalms, the beauty of our church, and, later,
the still visible moon, stars, the clouds and sounds of night. So much is given
everywhere. So much to learn, to absorb.
Those tiny creatures have learned to get what they need to live.
God somehow blessed them with the wisdom to raise their rears and to wait, and
then drink.
I raise my eyes and voice every morning and know that I have yet
to learn the patience and humility of the Toktokkie. Their tiny raised rears
are postures of gratitude, prayer, providence.
Maybe some day God will call me to a desert and teach me ways to
accept who God is and all that God offers, drop by drop, as God is always
faithful to that promise to sustain. Until then, I hope I learn from Gods
wisdom, which is everywhere, in the fullness of every day, a fullness that
comes drop by drop to raised eyes, hearts, hopes and, for some, rears.
Trappist Fr. James Behrens lives at Holy Spirit Monastery,
Conyers, Ga.
National Catholic Reporter, February 15,
2002
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